Seek help from a licensed therapist who can help you to take care of yourself.
Your anger and negative will kill you one day.
And I have no ill will towards other women, lol.
Obviously there are life stress's like money, kids, health, work, relationships etc.
Women will continue to be miserable until the recognise the truth and sumbit to their intened natures instead of pretending to be a man or viewing him as the enemy hiring quotas and reduced standards to elevate women is clear evidence they cannot compete with men, but facts-shmacks.
Hey, it happens to the best of us.
Very few men would marry a 35-year-old woman who is independent and opinionated when we live in a highly hypergamous act of marrying someone wealthier than you society.
If that individual is someone you are required to depend on — a parent, boss or co-worker — not engaging is frequently not an option.